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I feel bad for Daelyn, because she has to eat all of her food blended. That's disgusting. I have a lot of reasons to feel bad for her. She doesn't trust her dad. She can't laugh. She is utterly and desperately unhappy.

Daelyn spends some time everyday with the unusual site through-the-light. She reads the message boards, the list of people whose date has already gone by, and she counts how old they were. She wants to go. She hates life.

She sits on the bench still, waiting for her parents. The boy still sits with her. I'm not sure if he has picked up that she cannot talk, he just thinks she is ignoring him. He tries to talk to her, make small talk, or strange talk. He tries to make her laugh, but it's too late for Daelyn, she doesn't want anybody new in her life, even if they are just preppy losers. She ignores him by reading her romance novel. Her dad pulls up at the curb, and she escapes.

On through-the-light there is a section called "ways to go". They rate effectiveness, pain and availability. She reads the section about exsanguination (bleeding to death). She reads the facts about the best way to do and realizes she had made mistakes when she had tried this. (So I was right about this being her suicide of choice). Daelyn decides she is going to rid of any trace of her existence. She is going to throw out all of her old junk, and she has twenty-one days to do it.

Next day on through-the-light, Daelyn is reading the forum. People write about how many times they have tried. Some end up in a hospital. Daelyn has had that happen. It's a hectic situation that ruins everyone's day. But it won't happen again.

Day nineteen, Daelyn writes in the forum titled Bullied. She writes about being picked on for being overweight. Others write back, they know how she feels. Her mom enters the room and Daelyn clicks down the screen. She is just saying hi, the kind of hi that you cannot wait to get over because you are busy doing something else that you don't want to continue with her right there.

She has an appointment with her parents and her therapist. From what I counter, Daelyn is an only child. That must be tough, carrying all of your parents hopes and dreams, just you alone, no one to fall back on. The therapist asks if she has been happy. Her dad says she has a friend which shocks her mom and the therapist. He is talking about the weird boy. Her mom doesn't like it. She says he is so punk or gangster. He is so far from that it's not even okay. Daelyn's mom must be not exactly in with the new. Daelyn writes a note that says no. This disappoints her parents.

I want to know if Daelyn will actually follow through with the suicide. I think she will. I think she will be happier that way.