Notebook: Day One:5/8

I am getting a headstart, it was irresistible.

I woke up this morning with my head buzzing with thoughts. I wasn't aware that I was conscious until I noticed two things. One: it wasn't a school day so I had absolutely nothing to be frantic about. As soon as my thoughts had shut up I could relax and notice thing number two: I could hear the rain outside. Once I realized it was raining I was elated, exalted, yet peaceful.

I love the rain. I love it more than the sun. In fact most of the time, I dislike the sun. It is too bright and warm and gives me a headache and a sunburn. Both of of those things are unneeded. So, my infatuation with rain grows. When it rains, my insides seem to float, like they are being coaxed out by the rain. I want to go too. It may seem strange or dramatic, but when I asked myself why I love rain so much, the answer came surprisingly fast, and I think it is a one of two or three reasons I love rain (and I haven't figured out the other two or three completely yet so I will let you know.)

So reason one as to why I love the rain: it appeals to all five of my senses. I love the way rain looks, sounds, smells, tastes, and feels. It creates an essence for the day. Everything turns lush, accented green, and healthy looking, and is compliented by the gray sky, and darkened gray pavement. The rain hits against my windows and roof rhythmically, like a song that lulls me to sleep. It makes the air smell and taste clean and fresh. And it cleansing my skin whenever I go out in it. I feel new and light, like I could run somewhere, with incredible speed and never get tired.

After the rain, everthing is calm and beautiful. Almost like the rain is still there, having kissed every surface. When it is cloudy, it is like the rain is almost there, but if it never comes, I find myself anxious, sitting on the edge of my seat. But now that it has rained today, I can feel at one with myself, for reasons I can not yet explain, but hopefully will be able to after more of these notebook entries.